contentment

"the less you have, the less you worry about...."

i've read that phrase a years ago and it got stuck in my mind. i was in my deep thinking when ive remember that phrase.

all of us have goals in life. we'll do what it takes to achieve that dream. but there are times that it comes to a point that we are being irrational in our decisions. a large percentage of us would compare our lives to someone else's. the grass is always greener on your neighbour's lawn. little did you know - there are few cobwebs untouched in their house.

there is nothing wrong on having dreams and making your way through it. but, being obsessive on it - that's wrong!

i know this person - she looks stunning - married with kids. everyone sees her as a successful married woman. but no one knows or it seems no one sees how sad her life is. she makes or do everything to get everyone's attention. she always compare her life to me - that she wished she's single again who can go out at night and have fun with the girls. she said she's stuck with taking good care of her kids and work. that, how lucky i am as i have all the time to do things that i want to do.

let me put it this way - im wishing that these people would put their feet on my shoes. a girl who's hoping that someday that i'll have my own family, too. that, one day i'll go home with children waiting for me- and read them books and teach them whatever ive learned in life. are they missing this kind of fun? or they're just not contented on what they have?

to cheat or not to cheat

the other day, ive got a friend who shared a story about a girl who cheated on her husband. she was seen hand in hand with a guy - her boyfriend. my friend told me that a lot of people judged the girl by her actions. because she had cheated her husband. she told me that those people dont have the right to judge the girl and the society is having double standards as people tend to accept cheating husbands - not cheating wives.

from what i believe, a guy and a girl who swears that they'll live through thick and thin is bounded to that promise. if the girl/guy is unhappy, they should try at the very least, to talk about it before it gets out of hand. worse comes to worse, couples might end up walking on a different path - far away from each other. i guess, by having an affair or a "side dish", it'll not solve the problem - it may worsen it. it's like you're escaping to reality.

cheating is not accepted at all. no excuses. you may be a girl or a guy who cheats. cheating is still cheating.

yey!

i,ve finally remember my password! woohoo!!

hayskul mems

"highschool life oh my higschool life....every memory kayganda..." - Sharon

i know ive been good when i was still studying but then again, being a kid/teenager that time, i was also playful and been mischievous.

First Year
1/Class President. Prim and Proper. When the teacher was our, I'm the one in-charge. My classmates are too noisy. Way too noisy.
Then biglang, "HOY! WAG NGA KAYONG MAINGAY! ANAK NG TOKWA! KAGAGALING KO LANG NG OSPITAL!" That's me.
2/ My History Teacher asked me about my crush, Marc Anthony B Razo. She asked me if ever maging classmate ko si Razo, ano daw bang gagawin ko. Ang sagot, "EH Mam malabo po iyon. Nasa section 1 yun. Saka, wala lang. Hindi ko po kakausapin." End of conversation.
3/ During a school program, nag speech iyong crush kong senior. Our teacher said, "sayang! magaling pa naman. kaya lang walang nakikinig." And my classmate said, "mam! meron po. iyang si lea amor. kita nyo oh talagang nakatitig pa."
4/ I was close to this guy and i thought he's gay. Nalaman ko na lang may crush pala sa akin and he's not gay at all. Ay! Mali!
5/Flag ceremony. I have to ask my classmates to fall in line and get ready for the flag raising ng biglang may nagsuntukan. Mga kaklase ko pala! The guys are much taller than me at ako pa ang umawat sa kanila. Mga bwisit! Sakit sa ulo! I wonder where they are now... *esep esep*

Second Year
1/ Sa likod ng group nauupo. Nambabato ng buto ng sampalok.
2/ Nagbabasa ng romance pocketbook while the teacher was lecturing about Economics.
3/ Naging ka-groupmate ko si Volleyball Player. Sobrang kilig pero padedma.
4/ I was late on a group meeting and was rushing on the stairs, nang bigla akong nadapa. I thought no one saw me. When I'd reached the meeting place, I was introduced to this guy, he's one of the seniors and he's kinda cute. Kaso biglang sabi, "ay! i remember you. ikaw yung nadapa kanina diba?" Damn!
5/ Nahuling nagbabasa ng magazine na ang nasa cover eh ang Gwapings (Mark Anthony, Jomari and Eric).

to be continued....

Random Thoughts

Love at First Byte?

Few years ago, I've started chatting. I've met few people and gained new friends. And up to this time, they are still my friends. Among those people that I've been close with, two of them are closest to my heart.

The guy is a typical shy type person who usually mumbles when the girl is around. The girl, on the other hand, is the coolest girl ever. Both of them are popular on that cyberworld community we've had. We're on the same circle of friends.

Before, I call them with their nicknames. Slowly, that once in awhile hi and hello, established friendship for this two people. A relationship that started with ASL.

That friendship blossomed into a respectable, and stable relationship ever I could imagine. Although they are far away from each other, they see to it that they have constant communication and they have time for each other. A chatroom....a friendship that lead to the altar.

They have their own ups and downs but I witnessed how they've tried so hard to settle things straight. Both of them are responsible, thoughtful and understanding.

I know that in cyberworld, there are a lot of people who will talk to you and will try to befirened you. BUt, few are the real ones. And this two people that I know of, they are the REAL ONES.

A few days ago, they've celebrated their first year anniversay as husband and wife.

Finding Mr Darcy

When I was small, I told myself. I want to meet He-Man and I want to have a friend like Oracle. Funny, huh?

That was ages ago.

As I grow older, I tend to read romance pocketbooks, like a normal teenager do. I fell in love with the characters and hoping that I'll get to meet someone like them. I dreamed that someday, somehow there's a guy who will sweep me off my feet. Thinking of a knight in shining armour. Or a prince who will rescue his princess.

Juliet got her Romeo. Girls have their Casanova. The princesses rescued by their princes.

In my heart, I know, I need someone like Mr Darcy. Based on Jane Austen's novel to Bridget Jones' Diary, i love his character. Someone whom I'll respect 110% and someone who's intelligent, quiet and not proud.

In a new era of meeting potential partners, we have different options such as dating, chatting and the most convenient, and i guess, the most in demand right now, is online dating. I have had tried the said different ways and yet, no one have said, "Hi! Im Mr Darcy."

no title

i dont have pair of crystal shoes nor slept in thousand years
im just simply a girl on a tower
captured by a dragon who breathe fire in the air
thinking when can i walk out of this dragon's lair

im waiting for my prince to rescue me
he might have been lost and couldn't find me
he might have thought about it and think twice
oh my! oh my! that is not so nice

oh my prince! when can i see your face
are you still searching your way out of that silly maze
im patiently waiting for you from sun till dawn
don't worry, you won't see me frown

in my dreams, i love to walk in the rain, holding your hand
want to watch the sunset while sitting on the sand
my question is, can you make me smile?
because im smiling at you even for a distant mile

by the way, i can cook and love to read books
you might find me nerdy on the way i look
i can make you laugh but i wont make you cry
im not capable of giving you tears in your eyes

like a white flying dove on the sky above
i can give you my wholeheartedly love
oh my prince! i can easily trust
but your honesty is a must.

A Gift

Yesterday, two days before Valentine's Day, I've received a very touching gift. A gift from my parents. I want to share this message, although, I am not sure where does my parents got this nice words.

Everdearest L,

Whoever touches our lives leaves heart prints...of love and joy. Thank you for being a beautiful heart print in our hearts.

It's not how well you jump pver the obstacles nor how fast you get to the top but how often you stop to appreciate simple things in life which makes life worthwhile.

We are thinking about you and remembering all the special times we've shared... times that wouldn't have been the same without you. We have such fond memories of our heart-to-heart talks, of sharing successes...hopes and dreams...and even in tears.

Love and Prayers,
Dad and Mom

And the card message says,

Having you for a daughter
has been one of the greatest gifts
life has given us
For all you've been
for all you are, and for all
you're yet to be...

We love you very very much.

Honestly, for me to received this kind of message from parents, it is overwhelming. I am not and never will be a perfect daughter for them. Between me and my brother, I am the stubborn one. From time to time, me and my parents has disagreements. Although, as i grow older, i slowly understand and realize the importance of their teachings to us.

While reading the card, I was crying. I am far away from them but I've felt their warm-hearted hug and kisses from the message. I am always be their daughter and their baby. And with that, I am proud to be their daughter.

Happy Valentine's Day....NOT!

i hope whoever reads this part of my blog won't be shocked. im not a heart-broken, desperate, 20-something single. in spite of being single, i am happy, contented and cheerful human being. :D

i just want to share my views about celebrating Valentine's day

10 Things I Hate on Valentine's day

1 bears

- i already got a lot of stuff bears

2 flowers
- i like flowers but not on Valentine's day because it's too common

3 red and pink colors
- i love red. my fave color. second is pink. but associating it with Valentine, nah. too common. i might as well wear a green shirt. I'll bring Christmas on Valentines. :D

4 poems

- i wrote poems myself but not this time of the year. i want to be different.

5 sweet nothings

- come on, is it only Valentine's day that you can be so sweet?

6 chocolates
- chocolates make me fat. nah. just kidding. i eat chocolates everyday. but just like the rest, it's too common.

7 jewelries
- what's with the jewelries and Valentines? can someone explain it to me?

8 gifts
- another gift giving occassion huh...and yeah, i dont mind giving as it feels good to give and make someone smile but at least, for someone who gives, i hope they're sincere not just giving gifts for the sake of the occassion

9 love songs
- for crying out loud!

10 valentine's concert

- im tired of these....but what can i say? lover's do. lover's dont.

10 Things I Love on Valentine's Day

1 smiles

- i want to see lovely smiles as it brightens my day

2 hugs
- warm-hearted hugs gives me comfort and feels like that im loved

3 greetings
- sincere greetings

4 forever friends card
- nice and well written messages

5 handwritten note

- i think im the only one left who does a snail mail

6 friends
- lovely group of friends around cheering and laughing

7 kiss
- a deep and passionate kiss

8 hhww (holding hands while walking)

- isnt that sweet? holding hands while walking under the moonlight. without having an extravagant celebration on a expensive restaurant

9 dinner by candlelight
- very intimate.

10 home made cooking

- the best ever gift to be ever received. why? because i know that whoever cook it for you, that person took a lot of time and effort. dont ever mind the taste.

new year...new life

year 2006. it's been awhile since ive pposted here. ive been busy with a lot of stuffs...work...dancing...work...going out with friends...work...cleaning my place...work...work and work. did i say im busy at work?

for the past few years, ive experienced a lot of pressure and challenging moments. ive fell in love and ive also experienced the pain of loving. but ive learned a lot more this time.

year 2007. anyway, new year celebrations over but im still organizing my schedules and my plans for this year. just like everyone, i have plans to achieve and goals to attain. i want to learn taekwondo or possibly swimming. im still searching for schools though.

im still enjoying my ballroom and latin dance lessons which ive started last year. it's cool and it's quite challenging right now specially now that im attending the intermediate class. well, with my hectic schedule, i want to practice more. hopefully, one of these days i can attend the social dancing which happens to be every friday.

yes, this year i'll be turning 30. more age, more wisdom. new year. new life.